Faith or Fear?

How is your heart in these uncertain places of life?

Am I reacting in faith or fear? I am having to ask myself this question over and over during the day. It is a question we are all having to ask ourselves, so it is not a coincidence in my regularly scheduled Bible Study plan, I found myself at the feet of Psalm 91 today.

“He Himself will deliver you...” Psalm 91:3

Here is the deal. Maybe the worst kind of pestilence in me is not a Covid-19 virus. Maybe the worst pestilence is my reliance on ME instead of HE! Maybe that destructive plague is the mindset if I do all the prepping, follow all the guidelines, and keep all the rules, my outcome is statistically going to work out to keep me and my family well.

What is the pestilence that is plaguing your soul?

I understand it is important to be cautious and prepared. I am not negating the need for that, but at the end of the day, what is my heart saying? Am I confident that God has His plan in hand and that plan is a good one? Am I confident that if I don’t get Covid, He will be glorified? But, if I do get Covid, He will still be glorified? Either way He chooses, I can be content in the outcome, and He will be in sovereign control.

What is the pestilence that is plaguing your soul? Is it fear of a virus or fear God doesn’t seem to be helping? Is it a fear of political unrest or fear of a family member you love getting cancer? Is it a fear that you don’t know if you and God are “good” and you are not ready to meet Him should that happen?

So, stop. Right now. Stop and tell God what is plaguing you. If you don’t have a relationship with God, He has given His Son Jesus on the cross so your heart can be cleansed from wrong doing and made holy before Him. Tell Him that is what you want...a relationship with Jesus and eternal life with Him in Heaven.

If you have that relationship already, tell God the fear that is plaguing your heart, the thought that is eating you up, the damaged default your mind is taking you to over and over again. Confess it, ask God to help you trust His plan, and live in freedom from that soul pestilence that is far worse than the plague around us.

Prayer: Lord, help me identify the pestilence of my heart. I need to trust You. I want to. Help me to live by faith and not fear every day. Help me to recognize my lack of faith and consciously choose to believe You are making ashes into beauty.